me
looking at u
as u walk away
presenting my
brightest
amongst the decay

u will turn around
u will turn around
u will see

look
look
look
at me

this is
my smile

i found it
for u

please  look

new nightmares
in an age old dream

a joyous shout
becomes a scream

a scream of terror
a scream of pain
a cry of anguish

lonesome
alone
uncertain
what is causing
this feeling

that leaves you on
the bedroom floor
kneeling

offering prayers
is all one can do

yet, something is
stopping them
from getting through

you see through
your tears,
no one answers
your prayers

yes, it must be true,
they are not
getting through

and they never have…

in the time it takes
to realize
the limits of my senses

in silent rooms
of compromise
we speak in present tenses

losing all connection
to a past
that was uncertain

a gaze is cast
through the pain
of adolescence’s curtain

clinging
clinging

though the past
I cannot see,
it still
clings to me.

we could look
but never find

all the things
we left behind

but there is an intersection
where the merging takes place
commingling molecules
journey off into space

there to drift
amongst the stars

a healing leaving
only scars

reminders of things
we left
behind

i was chasing your essence
somewhere out
on the edge of a dream
slipping through cracks
of altered reality
into spaces where
once you had been

I follow the sound
of discordant heartstrings
searching for a melody
that goes beyond tomorrow

racing across
the barren landscape
of my heart